Day 200
Your daddy is the best. I told him that he can go and have sex with a prostitute but he said no. In fact I can’t stop remembering his words. “I know I mentioned once to you that I wished we wouldn’t have met that early so that I could have had more experience with girls instead of being with one and the same person for the rest of my life. And sometimes I’ve got those moments when I wonder how it would have been like, you know, if I had met you later in life… And then again I realize how sad those years without you would have been. In those years without you I would be jerk who is interested in girls not for their personalities but for their bodies and I wouldn’t know what it means to sleep with someone I really care about. Yeah, sure, many men are rather about quantity than quality when it comes to women, and I used to be like that too when I was younger because I thought it is about how many girls you sleep with, not what kind of girls but luckily that has changed. I don’t want to sleep with someone else. Yes, I admit, I’m craving your body like crazy, but like I said, your body, not the body of some prostitute. I mean, you’re not pregnant for much longer, so I might as well wait those few weeks… I know [it would be okay], but it would be wrong if I went to one of those women. It’s just…it wouldn’t be fair to you and… I don’t think midget would be proud of its father if it knew I slept with someone else besides mommy.”
It’s those moments I see the love I feel for your daddy. It is so hard to explain after all those years of being with him, when he says things like that. I can’t believe how much I need your daddy, to picture a life without him makes me want to scream and at the same time when your daddy tells me in those words that he loves me it arouses me insanely. I wished I could have ripped off our clothes and let him nail me right there on the couch. But at the same time I know how much it hurts to have sex with your daddy at that was already so a few months ago I don’t want to imagine how much it hurts to sleep with him now. But that doesn’t change the fact that your daddy is very arousing!
I can’t believe your daddy thought about where you would sleep. I couldn’t yet do anything regarding your nursery. Lorelai promised she would make it really pretty while you and I are at the hospital I showed her a few ideas and told her that I would like to have it very simple. I think she will do a great job but I’m just worried if I prepare the nursery that something happens.
Peanut it scares me how much your daddy takes care of me, how much he calms me down when I get scared. I know I’m not my mother but I saw what losing children did to her and I know I’m not good with those genetic stuff but I am half hers so what if the part of her that doesn’t want babies, that makes her lose all those babies. I’m scared that I hurt you. And I am even scared of what it would do to your daddy if something happens to you. He is not good in losing persons, I think because he lost his dad before he was born and then he lost his mommy when he was too young. He can’t lose you too! Never! All I want is your daddy to be happy, so I have to stop worrying so much and show him even stronger how much I love him!
Your daddy is the best. I told him that he can go and have sex with a prostitute but he said no. In fact I can’t stop remembering his words. “I know I mentioned once to you that I wished we wouldn’t have met that early so that I could have had more experience with girls instead of being with one and the same person for the rest of my life. And sometimes I’ve got those moments when I wonder how it would have been like, you know, if I had met you later in life… And then again I realize how sad those years without you would have been. In those years without you I would be jerk who is interested in girls not for their personalities but for their bodies and I wouldn’t know what it means to sleep with someone I really care about. Yeah, sure, many men are rather about quantity than quality when it comes to women, and I used to be like that too when I was younger because I thought it is about how many girls you sleep with, not what kind of girls but luckily that has changed. I don’t want to sleep with someone else. Yes, I admit, I’m craving your body like crazy, but like I said, your body, not the body of some prostitute. I mean, you’re not pregnant for much longer, so I might as well wait those few weeks… I know [it would be okay], but it would be wrong if I went to one of those women. It’s just…it wouldn’t be fair to you and… I don’t think midget would be proud of its father if it knew I slept with someone else besides mommy.”
It’s those moments I see the love I feel for your daddy. It is so hard to explain after all those years of being with him, when he says things like that. I can’t believe how much I need your daddy, to picture a life without him makes me want to scream and at the same time when your daddy tells me in those words that he loves me it arouses me insanely. I wished I could have ripped off our clothes and let him nail me right there on the couch. But at the same time I know how much it hurts to have sex with your daddy at that was already so a few months ago I don’t want to imagine how much it hurts to sleep with him now. But that doesn’t change the fact that your daddy is very arousing!
I can’t believe your daddy thought about where you would sleep. I couldn’t yet do anything regarding your nursery. Lorelai promised she would make it really pretty while you and I are at the hospital I showed her a few ideas and told her that I would like to have it very simple. I think she will do a great job but I’m just worried if I prepare the nursery that something happens.
Peanut it scares me how much your daddy takes care of me, how much he calms me down when I get scared. I know I’m not my mother but I saw what losing children did to her and I know I’m not good with those genetic stuff but I am half hers so what if the part of her that doesn’t want babies, that makes her lose all those babies. I’m scared that I hurt you. And I am even scared of what it would do to your daddy if something happens to you. He is not good in losing persons, I think because he lost his dad before he was born and then he lost his mommy when he was too young. He can’t lose you too! Never! All I want is your daddy to be happy, so I have to stop worrying so much and show him even stronger how much I love him!